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Such an ABSOLUTE Failure!

2009-12-30T12:19:00.002+08:00

Gone..
Everything that I wanted became thin dust..
they just vanished...

I hated everything..
My plans, my life, my journey just ended in the end of 2009..

I simply just want to hang myself till I can never touch the ground no more.

Why is this World being so unfair to me?
Why can't I just get what I really want?

My educations, my dreams, my hobbies?
Nothing...

All I left was air..
Now not even an air is around me..
I can't breathe..

It feel worse

full of regretions is on me,
I should have known going to America is such a wrong choice..
I shouldn't have left America..!
I should have at least complete the high school..
so that I won't have that much of worries..

It's all the curse!
I seriously regret everything in my life!
'

REGRETS!!!!

Merry X'Mas & A Happy New 2010 YEAR~ ;D

2009-12-25T13:26:00.003+08:00

I WISH EVERYONE A MERRY CHRISTMAS!
AND A UPCOMING NEW 2010 YEAR!

MAYBE YOUR 2010 YEAR BE THE BEST YEAR EVER! (:
I know mine is gonna be 1 ;D

Wednesday:
At night went to aunt's house for a cell meeting..
A lot of people.. ><
It was my first time and my sister's

Everyone makes a vision for us.

Here's what my girls said to me (:

Miracle: You are like a bunch of chocolate in a jar which means you are ELEGANT

Covey: from this music of Jesus in madarin.. which means "Whenever where I wanna to go"
There's flame firing up which is there's a hope for me.. and it's adding more fire? LOL

Michelle: I am like a tree with jewels, precious and beautiful, and my heart is being filled with red colors by God (:

Grace: A path of carrots making my way through of success..

Sandra aunt: there's a housefly on my way distracting the conversation between God and I..

All of these I kept in my heart.. For me it's truely true...

Here's my vision on that day.. x.x

I have a vision of a BLACK car having a bad car crash..
It's is a good thing
It means.. the old me is gone.. and the new Shizuka is here! ;D

Thursday:

Yesterday went out with Gracia, Justiin, and Hazel~ (:
went to iluma.. was supposed to hang out together Chenxi they all but nah..
and WAS supposed to watch the Avatar..

and we watched

ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS 2~~~ ;D
It's sooo cute!!!

It's recommended! 5/5! (:

After watching the movie with my friends..
Went take the train to my big aunt's house in Holland;P

have TURKEY FEAST!! YUM~
and exchanged presents!

I got a branded watch ;D and a HELLO KITTY Pencil Case ;D
happy!
2 more presents still awaiting! ;D

Friday:

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Oppa is chatting with mme with all the christmas jokes he has =.=
with all the laughters HA HA HA !
instead of HO HO HO

WISH ME HAVE THE BEST YEAR NEXT YEAR! ;D

SINGING! ;D

2009-12-20T22:01:00.002+08:00

Today church is SOOO awesome~

We got to select a partner and sing for the devotions?
Then my sister.. sang as a God to me..
I am super duper touched by all her words..
Because each and single word of it.. came from the bottom of my heart..
and yet.. she cried for me instead of I cry..
it's just insanely weird.. but I did cried.. but not as much as her ><
but I do appreciate her as a God telling all this thing..

So she told me to SING to her.. ><
I didn't have any feelings..
Because we have to just say out wad god wan to say to her..

so I told her..

"My little precious darling.. I've seen you done great deeds to others..You've shown other good examples of yourself... I will never let you go.. and I will bless you my love.. I will always be there for you.. I am really proud of you my little darling.. "

then I sang this whole thing to her..
the "Lady-In-Charge" heard me singing
starting to approach me..
I was in shocked!
Because...
this is the first time..
someone had ever said to me..
my voice gave a powerful feeling ><
she also said I am a very good singer ;X

after all this.. and talk through whole thing with the whole church..

everyone started to ask me to sing ><
I was indeed nervous..
but..
I found it strange..
I wasn't as nervous as I was before..
I feel much more comfortable..
and I just sang o.o

I heard alot of applauses around my hear..
It's just music to my ears ;D

I really happy and touched..
when I heard people coming towards me and said
"I didn't know you can sing super well.."

"SHIZUKA!! YOU ARE SUCH A GREAT SINGER! YOU WILL HAVE YOUR DREAM COME TRUE"

OR...

"SHIZUKA.. YOU KNOW... ZHANG HUI MEI??? YOU ARE ALSO LIKE HER! "

HAHA!
I APPRECIATED IT!
I LOVE EVERYONE IN MY CHURCH! ;D

THANK YOU!
AND GOD BLESS EVERYONE!

IN JESUS NAME WE PRAY!
AMEN!

THANK YOU!

2009-12-15T16:04:00.002+08:00

Yesterday.. Wewe called me...
Unfortunately~ I missed his call!!! T.T
I didn't hear my ringtone! ahh!!

Man~

i REALLY wish he could call me again!~

and I NEED EVERYONES LUCK! GOOD LUCK PLEASE!~!!
SO that I CAN REALLY GET INTO A SCHOOL!!!
SO THAT I COULD GET INTO OCEAN BUTTERFLIES~
SO THAT I CAN DO EVERYTHING THAT I CAN!

AND!!
I have a feeling... that...
I WILL BE A SINGER SOON! ;D
I just KNEW IT! ;D

PLEASE SUPPORT ME IN FUTURES ;X

Right now.. just waiting for calls! and... SCHOOL RESULTS!~
PRAY FOR ME TO GET A POLY/ JC!~!! ;D

For the Glory!

2009-12-13T22:29:00.002+08:00

Went church!

It was such a different day..
It's like a brand new me today..

Though I didn't tell my church members what my life have been like..
But afew of my friends have been through with similar problems..
we shared our pains together..
we cried together..
and we love one another..
of course is girls hugs girls la..
and boys hugs boys la..
IS NOT THAT WE ARE SAYING WE ARE GAYS!
WE ARE NOT!

its that we don't wan tooo dramatic liao
if u get what i mean (:

Got alot of courages from all the ladies..
AND i really do appreciates each and everyone's wordings..
You all have given me loves and support..
and like all of you said..
we are like a family
I do love all of you guys!

HUGS from girls.. and 1 guy..
Moses is a cool guy.. though we are not close..
but we sometimes hang out in church and aunt house (:
BLESS EVERYONE WHO GIVES EVERYONE LOVES IN CHURCH

GOD really wants me to say to you guys.,.
Thanks for HELPING SHIZUKA!!!
THANK ALL OF YOU!!
GOD LOVES YOU!!
AND WILL BLESS YOU EVEN MORE!
AND IN JESUS NAME WE PRAY!

AMEN!

MOVIE NIGHT!

2009-12-11T23:04:00.002+08:00

Today whole day hanged out with Chen Xi kor and Marcus!

Went to iluma there find them...
then saw them...
stay at arcade... waiting for Jian Fong..
SO long haven't come -.-

suppose to meet everyone at 2.30
but i late I come at 3 ;X

Jian Fong come at 4 +

then first time see ZiLong =.=
and another I think is Chen Feng? idk something have to do with feng at the back.. LOL

Went watch movie!
Want to watch NEW MOON DE!!!! T.T
but the guys all not interested! HAIS!

Then we went to watch STORM WARRIORS!
IT'S AWESOME!
But the ending is kinda =.=
But the... devil guy is really kinda cool ;X
2 heros.. OMG.. very shuai~! haha ;D

but that girl actress quite dumb =.=

quite a fun night today! ;D
maybe next time going out again lor~
KTV~~~~ KTV~~~~ KTV~~!!!!!

DayLight

2009-12-10T23:20:00.002+08:00

Today~

Woke up...

Chatted with Cynthia, Marcus and Hyun Soo Oppa

Tomorrow going to movie with Marcus and Chen xi lors!
Going to watch... "Storm Riders? " LOL
No idea what's that ;X

Then also chatted with Oppa at the same time ><
He isssss soooo much for a "joker "! -.-
AND just somehow~
I don't know why...
we even switched our name with one another LOL!
like.. I became Hyun Soo
and He became Shizuka LOL!
the conversations is like super hilarious ;X
only this weird oppa of mine will talk bout it xD

Then just now hang out with Cynthia..
Went to Sakura =.=
HAVEN'T GET PAY! D;< RAWRR
dammit...

I am realy tired..!
My PANDA EYE ARE ALL OUT NOW!!! T.T

Good fine day..

2009-12-09T22:44:00.002+08:00

La la la la~ LA LA LA LA~~~~ CG WORLD~ ;D

Today wake up... kena nagged by mom..
so I have to do this and that..
if I have to say today is..

MOST OF the time today..
I HAVE BEEN SPENDING MY TIMES WITH THE 2 LITTLE ONES!!!

well or should I say..
I HAVEN'T BEEN TO OTHER PLACES RATHER THAN MY AUNT'S HOUSE FOR LIKE ALMOST A MONTH AND SO?!??!!

I NEED MY LIFE BACK!!!! T.T
I don't like being stay put at homes~ T.T

well Just now..
I online... and I saw OPPA online!
Forgot that its early morning over there in Irvine >< haha!
so he said he GTG!! x.x bored!!!
But he say he WILL talk to me later ;D
well.. maybe right after his school ;P
Maybe we gonna FIGHT again with our lamest stupid jokes xD whoo knows haha!

Right now.. I am super addicted to 2NE1 songs!!!
examples like.. "Please Don't Go", "You and I", "I don't care" xD
I love them!

AND OH MY GOD!!!
LEE MIN HO IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!! D;
BUT THE TICKETS ARE SOOOOOOO EXPENSIVES!!! T.T
HUBBY WHY?!?!?! ): WHERE'S MY VIP LOL! ;X
You my everything! ;X not really but part of it ;X

OPPA! BOGOSHIPPO! X.X NOT! XD

Super Duper Sick

2009-12-08T13:15:00.002+08:00

Yesterday had the WORST stomachache ever..

Went to my aunt's house for devotions..
and healing..

tummy just went worst for a while..
So I started to pray God for forgiveness..
After I prayed..
I quickly went to the restroom..
Vomit the whole breakfast out -.-

Something got stuck at my thoart..
so I was trying to force it out..
However.. My stomach started to cramps alot..
and it went up to my chest..
the pain is getting worst..

after puking everything out... Rinsed my mouth..
went to my aunt's bed to rest..
my stomach do feel a little beat better..
but my legs starts to feel numb -.-

so she prayed for me..

after a while.. i am starting to feel a little better...

Went down.. and ate KFC =.=
on the way back home.. no more energy..
feeling that I wanna to buff out ...
but when I reached home... went to the restroom..
and just vomitted al my dinner out =.=

and after my showers..
I just laid down on my bed..
not moving at all
my whole body numbs..
I can't really feel a thing..
I was too exhausted

suddenly I was feeling terribly hot..
fever went up freaking high..

Today woke up around 9...
though I am feeling better..
but after walking just a few steps..
I am feeling exhausted again -.-

its like..
I am not sick..
But i am just too tired =.=

Even my mom blames me for bringing virus home..
I didn't
I seriously didn't even go anywhere jsut my aunt house.. =.=
I didn't went out with anyone for the past few days

She just dont understands me

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OPPA!!!! ;D

2009-12-05T23:07:00.003+08:00

ANN YEONG! ;D

Today is AN IMPORTANT DAY!!!
IS SOMEONE'S BIRTHDAY!!!

SOMEONE WHO IS OLD!! D;<
MEAN!
EVIL!
AND A BIG BULLY!!! ><

AND YES!! U NEVER GUESS WHO...

HE IS MY OPPA!
HYUN SOO OPPA!

YA.. BABO! (X
HAPPY BIRTHDAY OPPA!
I bet this is the 18th right ?;D

Sorry I couldn't get you a presents xD unless you want a water bottle? xD
or a Map? WHOO even better!!!! YOU want... a paper xD

DON'T EVER KILL ME! D;

IT'S NOT MY FAULT FOR BEING MEAN TO U ;P
SINCE you always so mean to me while talking to me! T.T
AND IT'S NOT MY FAULT UR COMPUTER IS BEING RETARD!><

ANYWAYS.. HOPE you have a GREAT time in Irvine! ;D
and HAVE the BEST birthday EVER! (:
HERE i will sing a song to you xD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY~~ TO OPPA!!!!!!!! 18TH YEARS OLD THIS YEAR!!! OLD!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! (:

and yes that "18TH YEARS OLD THIS YEAR!!! OLD!" is included xD
hahaha!

okok I will be nice...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY OPPA! ><

Nothing IS Impossible!

2009-12-04T15:25:00.002+08:00

Though Reading is tough...
The Tough gets going.. ;X

I just change it to reading..
Because to me personally, I hate reading..
But only one book that interests me is...

The Holy Bible..

It let me know even more about God recently..
I've been reading roughly 10 pages today..
And I am still continue reading it..
Because.. I know when I just read it..
Jesus is reading with me..

As in like.. He will be beside me whenever I am..
AMEN

The Psalms taught me lots of knowledges..
Don't lie.. Don't curse.. just don't let your life have a "DON'T" words...

I do pray for Jesus..
I prayed for my family and friends in overseas and in Singapore too.
I even prayed for myself.
Though sometimes I didn't get what I wanted..
But I know Lord is still listenings to our cries for help..
He won't just ignore but he will kindly lend his ears to us..

Everyone on this Earth are here.. Because of Jesus Christ...
He sent us.. because each and single one of us has a mission for him..
Though I am still not so sure what my mission is..
But I will be looking forward to it (;

Reading Bible is like reading knowledges..
But.. it's just more fun to read Bible..
Plus... reading Bible is one of the best things...
Though some may seems like poem..
some may not..

But all just attracts my attentions..
God will only punish though who deceives him... and those who denies there's God..
Don't be the foolish ones..

He gives us blessings and loves..
He is the one for us..

Though I am a fatherless child.. and I have never have a father love..
But right now, I began to feel love from Jesus..
I can feel his warmth around me..
So right now.. I can say..
I DO HAVE FATHER..
WHO ALWAYS THERE FOR ME..
AND LOVES ME..

AMEN

Can't let it go

2009-12-02T00:30:00.002+08:00

In my heart, You will always just there...

Forever and EVER.. be there in my heart..
Whenever I am in pain.. You will cheer me up..
Whenever I am bored.. You will make me laughs..
Whenver I am happy.. You will be the one that I can share with the most..
Whenever I say out your name.. You will always appear through MSN..

Are you the one?
Why are you so far away?
It's too far for me to like someone like you..
I have never felt a long distance relationships so strong in my entire life..

Though I can't see you face again..
But I always dream of you..
Dream of the time we spend together in our lives..
Dream of the happy memories that you always makes me happy..

I always thinking of you..
Someone really special in my heart..
Someone who is my soulmate..
Who always be there for me..
Is YOU... Oppa..

SarangHae Yo!
BogoShippo! JINJA!

I just wanna know what you feel about me... );

ThanksGiving Day

2009-11-27T22:07:00.003+08:00

Today whole day played audi! =.=
No Life.. I know...

on the 25th November...

I have a MASSIVE tests... x.x

all I have to say is.. GOOD LUCK..
Good luck to me... on whether or not.. I will be in a JC/Poly School );
I really wish to get into a POLY!!!

And ya know..

On the 25th is also my beloved friends birthday!!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MEI YI!! (:
SWEET 16TH! BE MORE MATURE AND CUTE! ;D

Right now...
I REALLY WANT TO WATCH NEW MOON!~
WHO IS INTERESTED?
COME WATCH WITH ME ;D

I will struggle as time passes by..
Because of awaiting for the results..
Will I make it?
I will just have to wait for it..
till 30th December..
I am afraid...
Though my left eye top eyelid keep twitching..
I have no idea if that's a good sign or a bad sign =.=

I asked for too many things from God..
And I beg for forgiveness for being too greedy..
I am sorry O Lord..
I apologize for all my greediness..
I am sincerely sorry...
BLESS YOU~

HAPPY THANKS GIVING EVERYONE..
I WANT TO THANKS EVERYONE FROM THE START OF MY BIRTH..
AND THANKS YOU GUYS FOR BEING MY FAMILY MEMBERS AND MY FRIENDS..
THANKS FOR TEACHING ME LOTS OF NEW THINGS EACH DAYS..
THANKS FOR MAKING MY LIFE SO WONDERFUL..

EVEN THOUGH I DON'T HAVE ANY TURKEY RIGHT NOW..
BUT I WILL JUST USE MY IMAGINATION TO HAVE A FEAST WITH EVERYONE OF U (:

HAVE A FANTASIC THANKSGIVING..
LOVE ALL OF YOU!

PICTURE OF REBOND!

2009-11-24T21:25:00.002+08:00

Camwhores Day~
This is how I looked like when I rebond my hair.. (;
How is it?! D;

Anyways, feeling a little nervous right now..
Tomorrow is going to be a big day..
I do have self confident... do I? T.T

OH MY GOD.. I DON'T WANT TO THINK NOW!

I REALLY WANT TO PASS THIS TEST WITH FLYING COLORS..
BUT I SCARED THAT I CAN'T T.T
PRAY FOR YOU TO MAKE ME GET A POLY!

In my heart, You are always a Father to me.

Though I can't see you from where I am standing on Earth..

But I can say that I can feel your breathe...

I wish that tomorrow it will be a success to everything..

I do want to get into a good Poly and just have my dreams come true..

That's what I want in my life..

A good school and a good career..

Nothing is impossible if you just give me a chance to have everything control..

I love You..and You are everything to me..

1st place in my Heart..

Can't be replace by anyone.. Because I know.. You are important to me, dear Lord...

And Bless you for everything..

AMEN.

SICKENING!

2009-11-24T14:14:00.003+08:00

Oh My God!
It's been like weeks since I am sick..
just kidding..

IT'S BEEN LIKE WEEKS SINCE I KEEP SNIZZING! D;<
Currently taking the Panadol MAX Flu.. =.=

Who knows.. maybe H1N1 isn't over in Singapore =.=

Going to Causeway Point (MALL) to shop for my stationaries!
ahh.. Tomorrow is a BIG day!

I am pretty confident with my things..
Just have to pray before I enter the room.. ><

NEWS!!!!

THIS DECEMBER... I WILL BE GOING TO JAPAN!
MAYBE I WILL FORCE MY MOM TO BUY ME LOTS AND LOTS OF CUTE SHIRTS AND BEANIE!!! LOL! ;X I WANT TO DRESS UP MYSELF AS A DOLL HAHA

YEA RIGHT =.=

As Life Goes On

2009-11-22T21:01:00.002+08:00

Today, went to Church with my Dearest Aunt..
I have gained a lot of knowledges just by one day..

Everyone~ try not to be a sucha brat.., too self-senstivity, and too self-seeing

What I am trying to say that is..
what I have learn today..

As our Lord had said,

If you are being like the person who always declare that you did it..
But no one in the surroundings have actually seen it..
There's no point to just threw your tantrums around..
Make a believe in yourself as you go whereas..
So that believing in yourself is better than creating a climax for others..

Self-Senstivity:

Though some people are really sensitive of other things for example,
I remember that when I just a little child, I was in a shopping mall with my siblings and mom.
While the kids were having fun in the playground..
A Japanese plump lady just stood there..
I just smiled politely to her..

Some people just get the wrong images!
Instead of smiling politely.. That lady came towards me and starts grabbing on to my collar and started to yell in my face..
Starts to aim my hands and punch it..
During that time.. I didn't even know Jesus... at all..
But... I did ASK the God... "Why is it?!?!?!"
"What have I done wrong?"

It's not that I am self-sensitive...
Is that lady who is the one who is being too sensitive about things..

Self-Seeing:

Definition- Only do it YOUR way

I have this experience once...
When I was in my dancing lesson in school..
This senior of mine, don't really like her... I can't say I "hate" her..

Because... HATE is a harsh word..

A group project as I said..
everyone has a part in it..
but just somehow, that senior thinks she is like the leader of everything..
so most of the moves is HERS..
I did suggest some.. but she just ignores me..
And that's the reason why.. people don't really likes the way she acts..

I have learn alot..

Don't but like the 13 kings in the Bible!
Jesus won't forgive and forget..
He will punish..
Hard..

Went to Aunt's house..
Talked with my other aunt who is the preacher..
She taught me even more... even asked me about my family matters..
I don't know where to start..
But I didn't even told her every single things..
All I said is...

How my mom ditched me when I was a young girl..
How I didn't even met my father for the first time..
How my life is just so miserable..
Why am I the one whose been keep all this pain by myself without finding someone I could really talk to..

After i told the Preacher of WHAT i have spoken..

She said that... I am a "Poor" girl who's living in a miserable life..
poor as in a state where there's no one that love me..
Poor as in the state where I am almost going crazy without family..

Though I told her these, she said that I am BRAVE enough to tell her straight answers..
I am BRAVE enough to keep it to myself even though it's been like 10+ years in my entire life..
BRAVE enough for me to cry for once..
Because! I know.. Jesus is there for me..

BECAUSE i know.. Jesus loves me.. and will help me...

Help me with my life..
Help me with my father..
Help me with my soul!

Almost everything Jesus has given me.. even if I am not noticing..
But right now, I can feel him..
in me..
I can reach and pray for him..
I can say that "Jesus... You are my only father that I love... the REAL father in my LIFE! THE FATHER THAT I WANT!!! I LOVE YOU OH LORD!"

Though I can't see him..
Can't smell him..
Can't taste him..
can't hear him..
But I can FEEELLLLL him!
He's just beside me whenever I need someone's to love!

And Jesus will always be there for me!

Dear Jesus,

My father, my lord, my love ones!

Right now I have notice, how long you have stay with me even though I didn't know!

But right now, I can feel you exactly as others who are still praying for you..

I know You love me first..

and that's what's make me loving you even more my Lord!

Not only I am loving you, everyone around me that are Christians are praying hard and sincere for you.. Thousands of childrens loves the only FATHER..

And I am one of them.. Love you.. and Pray for you.. and will always find someone to talk to..

Help me with you..

Help me to get along with you, Jesus...

I want to know more about You!

And I will say.. I LOVE YOU EVEN MORE

AMEN~!

PARENTS ARE GOOFS~

2009-11-19T20:47:00.002+08:00

I HATE MY LIFE!
I HATE MY LIFE!!
I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE!

I JUST WANT TO GO NUTS NOW! D;<

PARENTS ALWAYS GIVE NEGATIVES THOUGHTS!
I HATE THEM
JUST WISH I HAVE A KNIFE TO JUST STAB THEM ALL!
CHEE BYE!

WHAT MAKES THEM TO STOP ME FROM DOING MY THINGS?!

SERIOUSLY
I HAVE NO INTEREST IN STUDY ALRIGHT!

ALL I AM INTERESTED IN ARE MUSIC!
DANCING!
MUSIC!~!!! DANCING!!!

FUCK~

IF MY MOM CAN QUIT SCHOOL..
WHY CANT I
I WAN TO REPEAT THE SAME MISTAKE AS SHE DID
LET HER REGRET!

SHE IS THE ONE WHO RUINS ME!
AND HE IS THE ONE WHO RUINS EVERYTHING!

TODAY JUST WENT TO OCEAN BUTTERFLIES!
WAS THIS MUCH CLOSE INTO GETTING MY DREAMS FULFIL!
ALL THANKS TO THE BULLSHITTING PARENTS WHO SAID NO!
FUCK U GUYS
SUCK BALLS!
NA BEI!~
I HATE U I HATE U !! I HATE UUU!~!!!

JUST SO CLOSE IN GETTING MY DREAMS!
WHY WON'T YOU JUST FUCKING SAY YES! DAM U ALL TO HELL~!

RED WINE!

2009-11-19T09:51:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to someone's wedding..
RED WINE IS ADDICTIONS!
I had my first red wine,
at first, it tasted a little bitter,

But later on, it just get sweeter.. (;
Next time who wants to drink with me can!

CHALET man~ GO DRINK! xP

plus.. today woke up early =.=
Dead tired..

later going to meet Gracia and Cynthia...

Gracia- go to Sakura and sign the resignation forms

Cynthia- return me money and go find job =.=

I FEEL SOOO HOPELESS!
I JUST WANT TO SAY..
MY LIFE IS BEING RUIN!!!!
I CAN'T EVEN GET A SCHOOL NOW!
I HATE MY LIFE!

It's dei javu? o.o

2009-11-16T21:04:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOD~~~

Today in the afternoon, went to Jurong West there.. Meet.. ALICIA JIE! ;D
FINALLY got a chance meet jie! I MISS HER ALOT~ ><
Then we are waiting for her friend, Rino! But he always late ;P

So off we go to ACER there to repair JIE's laptop..
so slow sia the service =.=

After that, we go Boon Lay there Jurong Point Shopping mall to have some WINDOW SHOPPING~!

After like 3 hours her friend is still not here! ><
Die liao.. ;P

then.. we went shop for HATS! ;D
JIE so nice!
She helped me buy this very SHIOKING hats as a belated birthday present ><
I LOVE YOU JIE~ THANK YOU~! T.T
I LOVE THE PRESENT ALOT~~~ XIE XIE~~~~~

Rino finally arrived.. when we buying the hats! X.X
then.. later on.. have a little conversations..
lalalal~

QUITE fun hanging out with jie! ;D
and Rino.. really looks like Zaini from my workplace..
I thought they are brothers hahaha! xD
Misunderstood ;P

P.S. JIE'S VOICE VERY CUTE! ><

Home Sweet Home

2009-11-15T11:14:00.002+08:00

Daddy's home~

Yesterday was sleeping, then heard my dad just come back.
Cannot sleep~ cuz he talks too loud LOL~

Right now, just gonna erase everything from yesterday..
Bygone be GONE!
Don't ever remember back, nothing has ever happen..

Today~ was gonna go meet Chenxi to see YAOYAO..
but.. cannot =.=
sian..

Then soon going out to find part-time job le~
Must quickly find..

My uncle ask me to go his childcare there be assissant teacher ;P
easy la~ Come i HELP !
but idk the salary how much ><

Nowadays I just feel really tired.~
Maybe once I quitted my job,
I am just really tired x.x

Friday the 13th~

2009-11-13T22:52:00.002+08:00

IT'S FRIDAY THE 13TH!!!

No wonder I am having a bad day! =.=

Tomorrow is going to be a disaster? o.o
who knows?
I can't even imagine the image of it right now

My eyes just feel like shutting down~
Too tired..

I just got my hair rebond!
Thanks to Gracia for waiting that long for me! ><
it kinda just looks weird?
but PLEASE JUST GET USE TO IT! D;

I jsut don't wan to think about tomorrow,
because all I wanna say it..
it might get worse? o.o who knows right?
==

I am just hating today and tomorrow
Just tell everyone out there..

Don't get too many people involved if they are not into this subject x.x

700th POST!

2009-11-12T10:59:00.002+08:00

This is my 700TH POST! D;<

Ohk..
I just got my pay like 2 days ago -.-
NOT SATISFIED WITH ANYTHING!

The workers attitude~ the manager~
The pay zzz
Oh my GOD.. -.-

So I decided to quit it..

And finding NEW JOBS~
It's even harder than I thought );

Maybe today I will return my uniforms? o.o
Or maybe tomorrow? o.o
sighs~
Just waiting for someone to reply me x.x

Plus i don't wanna go alone =.=

Dang~
TODAY I HAVE WORK TOO! D;<

Anyways...

To everyone who wanting to be in love or just thinking or not to accept the opponents..
Think about it..

This is what my best bud told me

1. Are you ready to spend your time with him/her?

2.Are you willingly to spend your money on one another?

3.Are you confident enough that he/she could be the one?

4. Are you always going to be with him/her even though you don't really have that much time and seldom meets each other?

This 4 questions... clears up my mind...

1. I don't really need anyone right now..

2. I don't anyone to spend money on me..

3. I am always not confident in anything..

4. Nothing lasts forever (:

To me, everything is negatives..
But to you guys out there..

No matter what, think it through... think twice? think thrice?
Ask yourself? Do you really love or likes him/her??

There's a HUGE differences in between Love and Like..

__________________________________________

Right now is just soo tired~
I think in any second I will just go back to my bed and sleep for 1 whole day..
But I am a light sleeper =.=
Around 3am or something..
Heard my little brother crying non-stop..
Later on, around 8am? heard the TV...
trying to get back to my DREAM~! D;

OH.. I DREAMED THAT I FOUGHT WITH GRACIA! D;
WEIRD DREAM IN MALAYSIA ZZZZ

Just hate the word NICE in me

2009-11-09T23:07:00.002+08:00

Why?!
Why in the world~?!

Why does God have to bring me alive in this world?
Why does he make me to become a nice person?

And why do I ALWAYS get hurts in the end on the conclusions of EVERYTHING?

Not only friends matter, family.. etc..
OTHERS occurs too!
I just hate being nice?!

Did our FATHER ever thought us not to be too nice to others?
Even though I may get real furious of someone, but why do I always help them out in the end?
Is this FORGIVING?
is this FORGETTING?

Why am I suffering from this ridiculous situations?
I really hate being a nice person..

I just wish somehow I could say NO to everything..
NO to helping
NO to relationships..
NO to lending!
NO TO EVERYTHING!

BUT I JUST CAN'T!
All I am afraid of is to hurt someone that I've been hurting all along =.=

Just when I thought of saying NO to any particular person,
I will always think about their feelings= .=
I will always think of what will they do next and so on so for..

I really trying to NOT forgive and NOT forget anything..
but always in the end..I will forgives and forgets =.=

WHY IS THIS A TORTURE?!

Jesus, as a sake of being my GOD
I really wanna stop myself from being too nice...
Because.. in the end I won't hurt anyone but myself..
I really really wanna stop this foolishness!
May I love you GOD,
AMEN

busy beaver~!

2009-11-09T00:24:00.003+08:00

Today is going to die!

Morning shift already so many people le..
At night more worst );

Then in between have break what..
Go to Causeway point with Alvin~
Headed down to see what to eat..
Cannot make decision~
LAST CALL! KFC! ;D

So long didn't have the CHEESY FRIES!
In USA, don't have such things.. they just sell CHICKEN there= .=

After that.. went down to B1...
see this movie call the... "Where got ghost"
At first got shocked a little bit by that red shirt lady LOL! ;x
then kena laughed by other people who are watching it= .=
paiseh lorh~ i first time watch it wad ;X

then we both rush rush back to Sakura ;X almost late ;X

then work until now ...
die die got headache.. x.x
BUT LUCKILY~ I TOMORROW NO WORK~ HEHE! ;X

Plus.. that JC paper is almost up soon x.x
Afraid that I won't be able to get into any of the polys x.x
today almost faint in scenes...

S.H.E. at CAUSEWAY POINT TODAY!

2009-11-07T16:30:00.004+08:00

The 3 BROTHERS!

Doe Rae Mi! ;D

Before meeting S.H.E! so many people! x.x

After meeting them O.O

Marcus's head

Chenxi's head LOL!

S.H.E ARRIVED!

SO BEAUTIFUL!

LOVE S.H.E!

Just now went to see S.H.E with Marcus and Chenxi Kor..

Meet them outside Metro..><

Then Gracia came around 1pm

S.H.E on person is WAY better looking than on TV ;D

MY FIRST TIME SEEING REAL POPSTAR!!! ;D

Ella still COOL looking with her kiddy attitude! ;D

Selina got skinner! D;

Hebe become MORE PRETTY! ;D

omg..

going crazy..

was going to get their autographs.. but

too many people.. plus marcus too lazy LOL!

HE SIAO SIAO ALREADY lorhs!

After this still wan to go iluma there find S.H.E again LOL! ;x jkjk

then after taking alot of pic..

we went to Woodlands Civic Macdonald..

Marcus and Chenxi dam funny can..

Keep bully Jian Fong LOL!

then me and Gracia keep playing the monopoly xD

then we got 1 free APPLE PIE and 1 SMALL FRIES! ;D

nice leh~

She got the Marina Bay.. I got the GEYLANG road =.=

itouch leh~ need to find another one.. then can get ><

32 GB SOMEMORE! D;

Then Chenxi they all wanna go iluma by taxi what..

so me and gracia follow them to the taxi stand..

how i know -.- they walk 1 BIG ROUND..

then go back to S.H.E there again

saw HEBE this time

TAKE Pictures

then end liao hor

Marcus say "HURRY LA... PEOPLE COMING OUT LIAO.. LATER NO TAXI! U SEE LA... SO MANY PEOPLE ALREADY.. WHO TELL U SEE THEM"

omg -.- he is the one who wants to see S.H.E

that crazy guy LOL!!!

dam funny la xD

Today very enjoying ;P

next time is go see YAOYAO x.x

kor want to go see her =.=

then ok lor~ Sembawang! ;X

I WANT SEE MY XIAO ZHU OR JJ LIN!!!! D;<